I attended my first 2 years of high school in NYC, and have a Vietnamese friend that I found her to be a bit odd, but yet very interesting. There was one time that she wrote a letter to her family for them to open in the event of her death. She said that you never know, what will happen if you die unexpectedly, at least you have a chance to say good-bye to them and they’ll know how you truly feel about them. It was difficult for me to read her letter, and I’m not sure how she wrote it without crying, I don’t think that I could do it. Her letter described in detail of what she was leaving for her family in the event of her death, and how much she loves them; and my name was in there too, but for the life of me, I can’t remember what she was leaving for me. I moved to a different state and completed my high school there, and by the time, I moved back to NYC for college, she went away for college like many of my friends. I’ve not kept in touch with her, or heard from her since. I often wonder from time to time what she’s been doing or where she’s living now.
What made me think of her is this article that I’m reading, it’s from Kwanruen Magazine, written in Thai language by Mayavadee, which after I finished reading it, I’m still a bit confused, really can’t make heads or tails. I’m translating it and it’s very difficult to translate because of her usage of words and almost talking in riddles, but you can tell me what you all think of it. It was called a letter to your spirit or a letter to yourself.
Do you have faith in yourself? This is the question that I’m asking you, and do you have an answer. How much do you understand the word ‘faith’, most would think that faith is when you look up to something or believe in something. Nevertheless, the real meaning is unquestioning belief that does not require proof or evidence; a complete trust, or reliance such as you trust someone or something whole-heartily; and that’s why the words ‘confident’ in you and ‘faith’ in yourself have different meaning.
Do you sometimes question yourself or your actions? Before asking someone if they are honest with you, have you ever ask yourself of your own honesty? These questions might sound a bit funny, but just think about it for a second, you have the answer, and deep down inside you will see that you are a bit selfish, which is not a bad thing at all. As long as it’s not to the point that it’s obvious, and it’s only human nature to love you more than other people, we all do. If you are truthful and fair to others as you are to yourself, than you are a moral person.
You will find that you have faith in yourself, if you are confident and willing to give yourself unconditional love. The sun shines and gives light equally to everyone whether you are rich or poor. The earth never complains or plays favoritism as to who is stepping on her, and the rivers always provide nourishment and feeds all living creatures, never once complains who is drinking more or who is drinking less. The oxygen that we breath in every second, daily, yearly, whether rich or poor, it’s the same oxygen, the only variations are the air quality as a result of our pollution. Think for a second, if you were missing any of these elements, you wouldn’t be you, at the end, your body components are made up of these elements. If you love yourself, then you have to love and respect the components that make up you, because these elements are a part of you.
Faith is not something that you have without reasoning, it should be a belief plus reasoning, and as a result, it should come from your actions; any actions with intention will always have result. If you will, think about the word ‘action’, almost the same as ‘reaction’, which is the law of nature in the sense that you do something, as a result, something else happens because of your actions, don’t throw your hands up in the air, and said its faith, its destination…
This is a very small portion that I’m translating; the more I read, the more confused I get. The remaining of the article talks about the spirit, where it comes from. Do you really want to know? Why do you have so many questions? Overall, it’s very confusing and strange to me, if I’m up to it, I might translate the rest of the article, as for now, I’m just going to end ‘A Letter To Your Spirit’ here. It’s something to think about, if you were to write a letter to yourself, what would you write? It would even be better if you would share it.